I owe you an explanation…

But I don’t know how much detail I should go into.

I don’t know if anyone has even noticed my somewhat hiatus and lack of posting or tweeting this last while.

I guess the easiest way to put it is I’m in a bit of a rut.

Not reading wise or anything but just an all around rut.

When I try to pick up my laptop to blog, I kind of just end up sinking back into the couch and reading a book or watching a show for the next few hours.

I haven’t lost my love of blogging. I adore what I do. Talking about books and replying to comments and tweets is so much fun but it’s almost as if I don’t have the mental energy to come up with the words to write a post anymore.

I’ve been going through some family issues the past few months. Well, not issueS. One issue:

My grandmother has been in and out of the hospital all year.

Most recently we’ve found out that she’s going through Heart and Kidney failure. The kidney failure has caused fluid to build up in her body and makes it nearly impossible to breath.

The doctors want to start her on dialysis but she is refusing. If she refuses, they are going to put her into palliative care. Food and pain meds while they wait for her to die.

I am angry. I’m sad. I’m frustrated.

I haven’t been able to bring myself to go see her yet because I’m scared I’ll either yell at her or just start crying. I know this is her decision… but I don’t agree. At all.

We’ve been trying to convince her to take the treatment, however, its not going well.

I don’t want to give a ton of excuses but I want you all to understand that although I may lag on posts when things become a little too much, I still love doing this and I will continue to do as much as I can.

Even if I’m not tweeting, I’m usually on Twitter or at least getting notifications. Or I’m posting on Instagram to follow the growth of the baby axolotl.

Don’t give up on me, friends. I’ll get back to it ❤